Okay this may be a bit morbid and prelude to bad karma, but I am flying out of Philadelphia to destination paradise…”the Virgin Islands” for my mom’s fiftieth birthday extravaganza. I have never had a fear of flying in the past, but for some reason this time I do. Maybe it’s because of the anniversary of Sept. 11th approaching, maybe it’s because my Aunt is very nervous that she will lose her sister and niece at the same time or maybe it’s just because I am older and wiser and really value life for what it is nowadays and am afraid of losing it, as I once was not as a youth. However, I pondered the fact that if something did happen I would like everyone to know how I felt and how much that I loved them. This seemed like the best route to go to make those statements. Well I love my mom for everything she has become but it is most likely that if that inevitable fate should happen she will be along with me on that journey. My dad – throughout the years we have been distant yet close. He has always been in my heart even when he was away and I was always aware of the fact of how much he loved me. Recently we have been spending alot of time together and got to talk about alot of the things that makes him my dad and me his daughter. I always thought of him as the smartest person and if there is anyone that i truly respect in life it would be him. Aunt Roe – my second mother, she has been there for me through it all. No matter what I needed I knew I could count on her and my Uncle Dave to pick me up. Sometimes her words of advice could be harsh but I know she was always trying to convince me to do the right things because she loves me. Uncle Dave- my second father, thanks for always treating me as one even though sometimes I have gotten out of line!!!! I will always remember you playing the guitar for us and it is one of your qualities that I have always admired. Charlie- my other other dad…thank you for coming into my life and loving my mother unconditionally and putting up with all my crazy antics, and giving me a little brother Charlie. Char- I know that we haven’t been real close…we are a lot of years apart. you are smart and intelligent and good at sports, i am proud of you. Paul- my sweetheart, i love you always and will miss you deeply. the last 9 years of my life were probably more stable because you were in them. if anything remember the good times the person that i am and how much of my heart you have always had. Tiff, Todd, Kiarra, Stacey and Renee- i love you guys, tiff you are like a sister to me and always are forget our differences because you know how are family is…forgive and forget. tell the baby i love her and don’t just tell her i moved away. stacey be good you have the brain’s to do whatever you want and don’t let others tell you otherwise…your smart and pretty and choose the right path because i love you and want to see you do good. Aunt Lise, Nanna, BJ, Leo and Kids- i know i don’t see you much and for that I am regretful, but know that i love you as much as possible. David- get better for me and your parents, i would like to see you soon but not where i am going to be anytime soon. so get well. you deserve a better life and it breaks my heart because i know you are so much better than that. Cheryl- thanks for being a true friend, it has been a while since I have been able to call someone that. you have been there for me when i needed and that i thank you for. Maribeth- your soul is pure and you connected with me in a way that is undescribable. your insights and personality are truely great. your the only person that i could honestly say is a “good person”. The Angelo’s crew- love ya’s all.
if i forgot anyone, this was written really fast for I am leaving in an hour…If i should come home those words do mean the same…but don’t think i am crazy for doing this, I would want everyone to know what i felt and would be glad to know that you knew too.
